Watching Dietland at the moment and it and made me sad. To see my deepest feelings and societal values personified was difficult. It also made me realize how many years I lost. 13 years ago I started eating mindfully which actually caused a huge food obsession for me. I became obsessed with hunger and fullness in a quest to obtain a thinner body. The result was a raging hunger and loss of control – binge eating disorder and 70lbs of weight. My life was full of dieting before the onset of BED, but my weight was controlled….but the last 13 years in some ways have been a taste of prison. Loss of freedom and almost a loss of living.

Today was peaceful with food. I didn’t binge. I ate biscuits and I didn’t binge.